Monday, November 28, 2011

Playdates with God: Coming Home


The sun rises over our little valley home the same as it does over the ocean and this morning I spent some time watching this familiar horizon fill in with amber and violet and longing. We drove ten hours to get home on Saturday, snarled in game traffic around Charlottesville--caught up in fans and travelers alike. We unpacked a tired van and left the suitcases in the kitchen floor and closed weary eyes and woke up Sunday morning to Advent. My neighbors have their Christmas decorations up and the mums on my front porch are brown and withered and the thick of night falls earlier each eve.

I am behind on life again.

Near the end of our holiday my husband took my hand and said, “Thank you for putting up with my family.”

I blinked and without thinking said, “They are my family too.”

There were ten of us in that beach house and it was cozy and suffocating all at the same time and the way I was forced outside of myself seems a fitting way to enter this waiting.

Last night we gathered at our church to decorate for Christmas—The Hanging of the Greens, we call it. The Pastor held up the Chrismon ornaments and we talked about the symbols of our faith.

She prayed:

Lord, as we dress the church for the season, we also dress our hearts to prepare for the One is coming—who is, who was, who always will be…

I’m dressing my heart in its finest, sweet friends. Let’s wait together. 

How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. And come tell us about it.
If you'd like to join in The High Calling Community's Advent Writing project, jump over here to my friend Charity's blog and read all about it!

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Friday, November 25, 2011

beauty is...




beauty is
     a wing of white

caught on
     silver arc of light
sewn on
     drift of current strand
held aloft
     by unseen hand

beauty is
     a faith in flight.
           

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thankful...


for all of God's gifts, from our house to yours: Happy Thanksgiving. Counting you all among my blessings today.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Playdates with God: Shema Israel




I heard her sing the prayer in a movie and the words opened my heart up wide. I ask one of my friends, who is Jewish, to sing it for me and he says at his synagogue they only speak the words.

“I was the worst student in Hebrew class,” he says. But he tells me what the words mean. He tells me about their tradition. I google the scene from the movie and all week long I sing the prayer to myself.

And when she talks to me about dying, how tired she is of living in an unheeding body wracked with pain, and she turns her face away from me in shame…the prayer is all I have to give her. And she grabs my hand tight and we are silent and we sit with her pain. Because He is the God of sorrow and pain-- God of all.

And this week, when Lucy Mae and I head out to the beach in the morning, the moon is still smiling high in the sky. The sun knows just the right time to wave her amber flag but these moments just before—they are my favorite. Scattered sparks of light rest on lapping waves and the horizon is tinged with rose. I sing the words out over the ocean and lift my arms high in the air.

He is the God of all this.

So  must trust Him with the rest of it.

How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. And come tell us about it.

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Thursday, November 17, 2011

Missing Autumn: Poem



the mantle of night
slides down the spine
of this mountain,
falling on blue
morning. the river
follows.

around here the
water waits to see.
the wind laps
against branches;
wave after wave of
crashing caress.

and I have missed
autumn. there are
leaves all over
the road.

listen to it:

Missing Autumn by Laura Boggess

shared with voices and friends and with emily:

 

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Mountains Know




I search through the pages of the reading assignment for any clue to the making of me. I find my grandfather’s story there, feel his hands mold my future with a coal pick. Between those pages I hear the song of the earth. And I wonder about this place called Appalachia—this place that beats strong in the heart of me.

It’s a politically defined area that includes all or parts of thirteen states. It starts at the bottom of New York and travels all the way down to Mississippi, reaches east to the Carolinas, and points westward in parts of Kentucky and Ohio. My home state—West Virginia—is the only state entirely within Appalachia. It’s a politically defined area, yes, but a people defined area too.

I read about the history, the culture, the land. I hug the words close to me and picture my ancestors wandering in virgin forests, loving on mountains and in valleys, wading through rivers and streams. I feel rich with these words; they name a part of me. It’s a complex heritage that makes my people.

Our teacher is Dr. Lon Oliver, Executive Director of AMERC, Appalachian Ministries Educational Resource Center and he comes to teach us about pastoring small churches. Because around here…we have a lot of those. And it seems that to pastor the church we must pastor the people. And there are things we need to learn in order to love these people well, he says.

Dr. Oliver has a passion for the Appalachian people.

More souls will be won on the local bowling team than in the church,” he says. And he says it over and over all weekend long: “The church is borne on the local cultureWherever God places us to really hear the voices of our parishioners…we believe the Spirit of God is with the people.”

We talk about the history—how the Iroquois were here first—about the three different divisions of Appalachia (Guess what? WV is in the poorest one.), about systems and the life cycle of a church…

But it is in his stories that his love for the people of Appalachia speaks loudest.

“I was in Hazard, Kentucky,” he says. “The only place I could find to eat dinner was this little tavern. Word got out around the place that a preacher was in the midst. I ended up staying there until two a.m. talking with people about life and death. At the end of the night I was granting absolutions of a sort.”

He laughs it off but then looks hard at all of us—all eighteen candidates for Lay Pastor certification.

People are spiritual,” he says. “And people are hungry for the Good news of the Gospel. But if we wait until they come through the church doors, most will not hear the Good News.”

He talks about how the love of the land is a central ideal for the Appalachian people, how the coal and timber barons robbed us of this great joy, and how this love of the land is still a pervasive part of our culture.

The biodiversity in Appalachia is phenomenal,” he says.

Missing the glaciers of the last ice age also means that Appalachia is one of the most diverse biological regions of North America. As the glaciers moved southward, northern species came to inhabit the southern areas, creating an unusually rich genetic pool. There are 690 vertebrate species and 2245 higher plant species native to the region. The kinds of trees found today were here over fifty million years ago… (A Handbook to Appalachia, Natural Resources and environment of Appalachia by Rouse and Greer-Pitt)

We talk about how rapid industrialization in the late 1800s and early 1900s demoralized our people. How the natural resources were exploited and the people left barren.

Most of our forest here are third or fourth generation…in an economy concerned with outcome and not quality, most young people don’t have jobs…”

He connects the dots from the past to the present for us and I begin to grieve the death of all those trees.

…During the great timber boom between 1890 and 1910, the region’s trees became a source of industrial activity when outside buyers came into the hills to purchase hundreds of thousands of acres of forest resources…The height of the timber boom in Appalachia was reached in 1910. In that year, over 50 percent of the standing timber production in the United States came from the South, and most of that was from the mountains. Huge areas of Appalachia had been cut over by then, and production declined significantly thereafter.  (A Handbook to Appalachia, Appalachian History by Richard Straw)

At night I dream about those first generation trees. About the Iroquois and Cherokee who loved them in their infancy. In my heart I hear the echo of their fallen leaves, gasp at the wide expanse of their trunks. The trees are my kin and so is anyone who loves these gracious mountains.

These are some of the oldest mountains on our planet,” Dr. Oliver says. “That’s why they are so gentle—so welcoming of life.”

The earth whispers to me: you must become like the mountains. And I take this whisper and carry it inside of me. The mountains know how to love a people well.

The mountains know.


With Jen today:


And Michelle:


Black Willow




Peterson says: a
shrub or
tree with
narrow, or long-
pointed leaves
that are green
on both sides…
the foliage is
fine-toothed and

hairless and Williams
adds: it usually
grows near water,
holding creek banks
in place. bark on
old trees looks
shaggy and it produces
salicin, the active
ingredient in aspirin.

I only know
I have a branch
of it pressed on
page 390 from
two years ago when
the boys and I tried
to learn our trees. now
I lay beneath its
canopy, on the bank it

holds in place and
imagine Native Americans
chewing these twigs to
soothe a headache.

In response to The High Calling's Photoplay this month Random Acts of Poetry by Tweetspeak Poetry.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Playdates with God: The Sleeping Garden


I spend the mornings in the flowers—cutting back, pulling up, raking out. I’m late this year—the frost already thick on the grass when the sun drops the diamonds of first light. My mother-in-law told me to wait; let the birds glean what they will, she said. And they did. The coneflower is dry as straw, the Black-eyed Susans blink. All the color is gone from the garden. The brittle browns and faded rusts shush me as they rub together in the wind.

I rake leaf remains out from around tubers—their subtle reds and golds like scattered gems. The thick bands of iris greens break easily with fingers. I smooth around their fibrous heads, let them breathe. Already the leaves have started to make rich compost--the soil underneath fragrant and dark. I breathe deep its heady scent, close my eyes and dig fingers in the cool moist.

This afternoon the robins are in a frenzy over my newly cleared soil. I watch from the window as they hastily march back and forth amongst the stubby remains of my garden.  It looks so clean. The mulch around the dormant clumps of green holds such promise. I wrap my arms around my sides—hug close this seed that strains against the dark soil of my heart.

Yesterday the first snowbirds came calling. You are too early, I said to them, through the glass of the kitchen window. I watched them pick at the ground for stray seeds, rosy beaks and slate feathers speaking the horizon of scant days. 

Will you please join me over at The High Calling for the rest of this musing?

How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. And come tell us about it.


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Monday, November 7, 2011

Playdates with God: Love in the Mail




The frost is thick on the grass in the mornings now and I stand on the porch with Lucy Mae and watch my breath move out of me. It becomes part of the atmosphere and I imagine that it carries love and my love travels on the air over miles and miles of land and sea.

I cannot go to Ecuador—only in my prayers. I cannot travel to the far reaches of Africa. Though my heart visits those curves on the globe every night…To the Great Horn in Ethiopia where a young son carries a picture of me in his shirt pocket. “So I can keep you close to my heart,” he wrote me once. And down to the Southeast in Malawi, where two young girls dance and dream. One wants to be a teacher—and she keeps good marks in school. The other likes to draw and she sends me pictures scratched out with pencil on small bits of paper.

How I love these children. And each night, my boys and I pray for them and so many like them who live in poverty and want. I cannot go and see the light that shines in their eyes. At least not now. For now I am stuck in the pew.

But I can send little pieces of my heart to them. A t-shirt with our football team’s logo for Romedan. New sketchpads and colored pencils. Colorful hairbands for Bunaya and Evyline. Photographs of my boys—their American brothers. 

The packages should  arrive in time for Christmas.




And love. So much love I send to Africa.

Will you please join me in praying for my friend Ann and the other Compassion bloggers who are in Ecuador this week? They carry so much love along with them. 

How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. And come tell us about it.


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Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Gift of the River: Poem


they are working on the rails this
morning and it feels like an emergency—
with flashing lights and
heavy equipment all lined up
on iron.

the crossing is closed. sepia-
toned trees gawk against
the rose of the sky’s tattered
hem and traffic slows to
wonder.

the hills peeking over remind
me of that pre-glacial sculptor—the
Teays River—that raged through
this little valley, flattening land
for road and rail and

creating the possibility of this
gift: a far off whistle blowing;
the pull into an embrace and
the voice that speaks home
all over this soil.

 Listen to it:
 
The Gift of the River by Laura Boggess

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